2015 is going to be a big year for me. After god knows how many years of education, I will finally (well, hopefully) be graduating from university in July and heading out into the big, wide world. For the first time in my life, I don't have a definite road ahead of me - from primary school I went to secondary school, and then the presumed route was university, but I'm about to finish the 'walkthrough' stage of my life, and soon no one is going to be around to give me hints about my next move. The only thing that's certain is that I need to start making enough money to fully support myself, but how I go about doing that still remains unknown - Will I be able to find a job? Where will I be living this time next year? What field will I end up in? Every year before this I have more or less known where I would be in twelve months time, but this is completely different and that's pretty scary. As with every other year, I have set myself the following 'targets' to pursue (even though I will probably never fully achieve them) so I can focus on what I think will make me a better person;

Learn to love myself: I know that this sounds incredibly corny, but it's really something I need to work on. I have incredibly low self esteem in every area of my life; I honestly can't name something that I would consider myself 'good' at, and my lack of confidence has really held me back in so many ways. I know that there isn't an 'insta-cure' for this, but it's something that I'm determined to work on, and if I feel the slightest bit happier with myself this time next year then I will be satisfied with my efforts. 

Stop putting so much pressure on myself... I'm a stress-prone person to begin with, and I've always been a perfectionist and these two things do not mix well. I need to learn that every test or challenge isn't the be-all and end-all. If I continue to try my hardest, the future will take care of itself. 

But continue to push for what I want: That being said, fate isn't everything and I need to figure out what direction I want to take my life in and charge at it. I've never been super proactive but now is the time to start. I can be disappointed for not getting anywhere if I don't go out and try first. 

I know that these sound like the 'typical' new year's resolutions, but that is because we are all human, and most of us strive for similar things. So, although these might sound a bit clichĂ©, they are genuine goals that I am striving for! I do, however, keep a list of 50 things that I want to achieve this year in the back of my diary, and it includes more specific things like 'visit 3 new places' or 'complete another spending ban', but this post is more about what I want to change in the bigger scheme of things. Do you set yourself goals/resolutions, and if you do, are they similar to mine? Let me know :) 

8 comments

  1. Great goals. One thing I can see straight away that you are great at is writing. Your writing skills displayed here are fantastic, and I have some experience in this area as I write for a magazine and have a writing degree. Don't be so hard on yourself! Best of luck for 2015, especially completing your degree.
    Amber
    http://www.sweetwordsprettypictures.com

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  2. I guess how you are feeling abot the whole ending college thing. I have three more years of education ahead but it's hard to imagine yourself out of the shool situation. Our whole lifes have consisted in it! Good luck with your last months of uni and with the next to come, sure you'll be great :)

    I have made my resolutions too and I have those little ones as: read one book -at least- per month, watch a film per week, make a weekend trip on my own... And then I have the bigger ones as learn how to stop trying to control everything and overthinking all a thousand times, love myself more is on my list too (and also let people love me) or being more open with people who are important for me

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  3. I constantly put too much pressure on myself and give myself too much to do, and yet will take on more things if it makes other people happy. This is something I want to tackle this year. It does seem crazy that you'll no longer be in education, I'm thankful just to be starting university, however I'm sure life will soon creep up on me! Always a tweet away if you ever want a chat, hopefully 2014 will be the year we finally meet!! xx

    Kate xo // www.beautybabbles.com

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  4. Great post, and its not cliche at all. But try and look forward to your gradation, its by far one of the proudest days of your life, well mine was at least!

    Annabel ♥
    Mascara & Maltesers

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  5. I'll try but I'm so nervous about my grade because I'm finding everything really hard at the moment! x

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  6. I think we are really similar Kate, I'm just a few years on! Enjoy the security of education whilst you can - although I am excited to start living my life in my own way! Thank you so much for the constant support, and the same goes for you - I'm always a tweet/email/comment away. Yes, I hope we do get to meet soon! xx

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  7. Wow Amber thank you so much - I'm flattered! I hope 2015 is a good year for you too! x

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  8. Thanks MarĂ­a, I'm pretty scared but I guess I can only do my best! Those are some great goals - mine are pretty similar. I've actually decided to go travelling on my own - I'm going to Valencia for 3 days at the end of January. I'm a bit scared but I'm also really excited to go and explore on my own :) x

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